I haven't blogged because I have been kind of depressed with the whole permanently graying landscape outside my window. I recently had this conversation with my hubby 
 (who is the best thing that ever happened to me by the way, and has put up with all of my craziness lately).
Briana: "You know how I whine and complain every October because winter is coming?"
Chris: You mean how you talk for hours about the cold and darkness?
Briana: Yeah.
Chris: How you mope around the house? How you hate going outside? How you have that hazy glaze in your eyes when I mention the beach, the sun, the summer, beach towels or anything else related to UV light?
Briana: Exactly. I think it's because I am SAD. S-A-D.
Chris: Yeah. Obviously you are sad. I mean, you look sad.
Briana: No, SAD, as in S-A-D.  
Chris: I know you are sad. I wish there is something I could do.
Briana: Well, I think I need one of those lights---you know , the lights that help you when you have SAD.
Chris: What the heck are you talking about?
Briana: I have SEASONAL AFFECTIVE DISORDER--where you get depressed every winter because of a lack of light.
Chris (laughhs): Oh, gotcha. I was wondering why you kept spelling "sad"?!

Anyways, I am trying to see if I can fix this. I just got a light today in the mail. We'll see what it does for me. It just blows my mind that this little 4x5 little picture frame size light is going to help me. When it came this morning, I almost laughed because it's so tiny. I thought I was getting a bigger, solar panel-like thing. Nope. However, when I turned it on, it did send crazy death-rays into my eyes that almost made me drop-it-like-it's-hot.

 It got great reviews though. Apparently I am supposed to sit in front of it for fifteen minutes during the morning. 
  I looked up what this light is supposed to do, and it still makes no sense to me. Something about the light entering your eyeballs....yadda yadda. Hormones changing. Something, something.
If it makes me happy, then that's great. If I don't have to take some Prozac, again, g-r-e-a-t.
I just want to be happy, okay?